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9月30日 31 years!!I've just realised....today it is 31 years since I first met the man I was destined to spend the rest of my life with!
I didn't know it then, but from that day on, this man would be the main focus of my life. Don't get me wrong, this has been no fairy tale...we have been through so much together.
I was only 17 when we married, very young, headstrong and determined. My husband to be was a streetwise, tough....done it all lad, I was naive, but knew what I wanted ,and it was him.
I remember thinking, this will never last, but also thinking that I still wanted whatever time I had with him!.....sounds silly now, but wasn't it worth the gamble!!
I know I was only young, but I knew what I wanted, which was Allan & a family....god, I didn't know what a fight I had ahead of me. With Allan....well, from the start we always fought like cat & dog....yet I don't know a couple that were closer and did so much together.....and as for children....I couldn't wait to start a family, so we tried almost straight away.........
27 years later and we are still waiting!...(who says I am not patient!). First we had all the tests...Al was OK, I wasn't so lucky....I had pelvic inflamitory disease, which had left me with damaged falopian tubes.......having my dream family was , well, just a dream!!. After an initial exploritory Operation, I had a big operation to try to repair the damage.......later we were to discover it didn't work...
Over the years we had 5 attempts at IVF......which were unsucessful. I have sympathy for anyone undergoing this treatment, it is really emotionally draining!...We reached a point where we couldn't do it anymore and decided to let nature decide if we were to be parents or not.
Two years ago , unknown to me at the time, I did get pregnant. This ended when I collapsed with a ruptured ectopic pregnancy that could have killed me.
Today we live lift to the full, I look at the positives in life, at the things I do have , rather than what I don't. I have a lovely husband, home, life etc. We would both trade it all for a family....but if that doesn't happen, ( which at 44 is doubtful ), well, we will carry on living life to the full and enjoy every minute....and we do!!!
I just thought I would put you in the picture......
 9月29日 Saturday!!!! What a lovely meal I have had tonight!!...who ever said my husband couldn't cook was a liar!!The food was yummy and all the time I just sat at my computer messing about....I didn't even have to wash up!!.....yes, you heard me right!!!.....This is the life....
After 27 years of marriage....Yes....I've finally cracked it....thank you god!!!
Oh how I love Saturdays...that calls for a celebration....crack the wine open Allan....for a change!!!!  9月22日 LifeFor the record.....
 I have been with the same man since I was at school ...(I know I shouldn't admit that).I remember I told Allan I was 16 and he told me he was 18. We both lied, but from that day on I was hooked!An unbelivable 31 years later...(oh my god!),....we are still together, and I love him even more. (ok I've had a glass of wine....or two)
Poor Allan is in bed now, sound asleep. He is having a bit of trouble with his shoulder...wear & tear of the joints, he is told... It gets you thinking about age & time. I really worry about him when he is in pain and I wish I could do more to ease it.
What I am trying to say is that....even tho' we are older, aching a bit more, I still love him more than ever! I just want time to stand still, to cherish every moment together. As you get older, time seems to just wizz by.
I know my life is ordinary...nothing special to anyone looking in from outside... but to us it is really special and each day is lived as if it were our last.......God, I sound so morbid tonight.....must be my hormones!!
Hope you all have a good weekend, and do all the things I would do!!!
Val xxx
Hubby cooks..... Saturday already!
That means lie in, shopping, relaxing, glass of wine in the garden...then, hubby cooking!!! Music is on, candles lit around the room.....
As for the meal....I did a lot of the preparation with him. We were having medalian steaks with red wine & mushroom sauce, roasted butternut squash with herbs, baby carrots and scalloped potatoes.The butternut squash was prepared & roasting in the oven, carrots cooking.....all left was the sauce to prepare & steak to cook....easy!!
Well, he is still learning....I maybe shouldn't have been looking at ebay for new living room furniture, I maybe should have looked when he asked..."does this sauce look OK?" & " does this steak look OK?" but I didn't!!!
Wish I had, coz, bless him, (and don't tell him I told you!), it was, well....crap!!
The steak was overdone, and the sauce was too overpowering. He put too much red wine in, (think he thought he was pouring me a glass).
I am sorry to say I was a bit nasty...(blame my hormones), I was chuntering, "I do this everyday, its not hard, I don't get no thanks etc, etc"....I knew I was being nasty, but you know when you are on a roll & can't stop!
It took the whole of 5 mins before I felt awful and was saying to him " Ahh, so you are not going to be the next Jamie Oliver". By this time Allan was like "Its too late now, I've fallen out with you!!
Still, he loves me really....I'll make it up to him!!!
 9月13日 Wish we could slow down timeI wish I could slow down time, this holiday of mine is going over way too fast!
Is everyone else like me and waste most of the holidays counting down the days until they return to work? I wish I could just forget all about work until the day I go back and then casually think "Oh, its back to work today!"....You would think I hate my job, I don't, I really like it and the money is good, so I shouldn't moan, I am really lucky to have a job!...(I'd just rather win the lottery and retire, wouldn't we all!)
The last few days, (even though I have been thinking about work), I've felt really happy and bubbly, and I don't know why! It would be nice to feel like this all the time, it makes you feel motivated. The house and garden are spotless thanks all my surplus energy!...(I wonder if its to do with the vitamins I've been taking?...even if it is all in my mind, it was worth spending that £4.99 in the health shop)
Think I'll go for a jog around the block before tea. 9月10日 Off work...again! I felt really sorry for Allan today, he had to start back work after our holidays and I got to stay in bed, (I did feel really guilty), but still it will by my turn next Monday....but until then, the holiday continues!
I haven't done anything special today, I always feel it is such a waste when I'm off and not hubby. What can a girl do, apart from drown her sorrows, shopping!....(I miss hubby even more when I have to carry all my own bags). I didn't buy much...just a top and a necklace...and toiletries!!
I have been busy editing some photos from Amsterdam with free software I downloaded from tudogs.com. It is called "Studioline" and is really good, you can crop photos, alter the tone etc and you can give it a blurry soft edge too, (some bad photos of me needed to be blurred quite a bit....but then they looked daft!)
Computers are brilliant aren't they? What would we do without them!
I'd like to say I have cooked a lovely meal for Allan coming in from a busy day at work...but really I am just warming up left over sunday dinner, (he won't notice bless him...especially if I give him a glass of wine with it)
I will make an extra effort tomorrow and make him something really nice!!  9月8日 I love weekendswhat a gorgeous day it has been. We had a bit of a lie in, pottered about and then went for a drive out in the car.
Inevitably, we ended up at some garden centre and cafe! Enjoying our favourite pastime of buying plants for our garden and eating!!
Once we got home we spent a few hours relaxing in the garden, reading etc. and generally pottering about....it is bliss! We love going away on holidays and weekends away, but our heart is really here....at home!....I love it.
We have been in this house nearly 2 years and still can't believe our luck. We previously lived next door to a play area.....not innocent little kids playing, but teenagers, drinking, swearing etc. and generally making our life hell....If I can give you one piece of advice, don't ever move next door to a play area!!
9月7日 Sunshine at last!!Sunshine at last!!....Isn't it great! I have been sitting in the garden with a glass of wine......That was only after I had tackled all the chores of course!, (holiday washing, ironing etc). We also went food shopping and visited the local garden centre to get winter cabbages and flowers for my pots! God, I am so easy pleased these days! a few flowers and I'm happy!
After soaking up the last of the rays, I made us a lovely meal...Al was supposed to be cooking again....he chopped an onion for the onion gravy...then all through the meal kept saying...."This onion gravy is delicious"....still, he's getting better at helping out!!!....give me another 27 years with him, and he'll be perfect!!...(only joking...he's great really!!).
Now we are just relaxing. I have lit loads of candles and Allan is watching a DVD...(not my taste, I love romantic comedies, true life stories etc..)...Al likes anything violent or scary....typical male stuff!!
This is why I am writing in my space...coz I am now a bit bored!!...Al has just brought me a bag of peanuts while he is devouring a crisp sandwich!!.....and to think we thought we could be posh in a 5 star hotel...no way!!....Still remember....you don't have to be posh to be happy!! Media PlayerWhy won't my media player work??
I've downloaded it onto myspace, added link to music...but it won't work.
Here's me wanting to play some music for you all....I'll keep trying!! 9月6日 AmsterdamHi,
We've just spent 4 great days in Amsterdam.
It was really Al's idea to go there and to be honest, it was a lot better than I thought. I really wanted to go to Prague.
I thought if you weren't into drugs and weren't a prostitute, (I am neither, by the way!), then you wouldn't enjoy it that much. The hotel was lovely, 5 star, all white dressing gowns and room service etc, not our usual premier travelinn, (I love travel inns), it was really posh for us normal folk!!
Still, we can be posh if we try!....It would be better though if Allan didn't grab at the free sweets every time we passed through reception...... if I didn't get my toast stuck in the toaster at brekkie time....and then be faced with the dilemma...should I just leave the toast there and risk setting the fire alarms off or do I shout of hubby to remove it?.....(which I did!)
Are you allowed to sneak McDonalds and KFC into your room in 5 star hotels??....I think you are supposed to order room service...but it was really expensive!
There was loads to see in Amsterdam, flea markets, flower markets etc. We love our garden and brought loads of lovely bulbs back to remind us of our stay.......and yes, we did go round the red light district and may or may not have brought a souvenir back from the shops down there!!
I will download a few photos to show you.....but being a woman...I think I look fat & so there may not be many of me!!
Enjoy this lovely weather back home....while it lasts!!....I still have another week off....yipeeee!!!!!!
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